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"almost break up"

Yesterday was such a day! (I meant yesterday's yesterday -- so technically, it's the OTHER DAY) so much for elaborating. But yeah, it's not a "day" for a good reason but for a bad one. It was fucked up! But before all the bad stuff, i want you all to know that i have a bruised and bloated right hand. Haha! Kasi Myko and I were playing this KETCHUP game. Haha. Alam mo yon? ;p

Twas late afternoon when things got a little awkward. We fought about this shallow thing and was dug deep prior to this "something" he knew from a friend which was not true. And wtf, he believed it. So he got mad and stuff, acting like i've got this huge fault but really,
i didn't do anything, and to think, this "thing" wasn't even true!
I talked to him and seemed like i was talking to the air. I just can't stop the tears from falling, until i saw myself crying before him. It hurted like hell, well ofcourse his in doubt of what im telling him. He believes the other person more than his girlfriend. He wanted to break up with me. It's the feeling of being.. unloved?.. or.. oh well, can't find the right word. He walked out and i chased him. I pulled his arm and he turned around. I was crying, crying everything out. (to think that we were in school haha)
He just looked at me. Stared deep in my eyes. Tapos he held me, said sorry, and hugged.
I didn't stop crying there. Eh kasi naman naiiyak talaga ako! We went to my place and talked. Umiyak nanaman ako. Wtf. Until I stopped and both sides said everything. So yun, naayos din.

The next day, my eyes were SORE. O_O and...

He was cold. :| It wasn't really about me, it's more like his personal problem that he won't bother to share. I was totally clueless and asking what's wrong all the fucking time. He won't really tell me. So i let him.. It was awkward. Yea, im his gf and i know nothing about it. While his friends know. It's unfair. He told me he won't be attending the xmas party. I got dissapointed. Ofcourse it wouldn't be a party for me without him. :| Uuwe na daw kasi sya ng tarlac the day before the party. For some reason... He wanted me to understand. But how could i? If i know nothing about what's going on? It's 1 day to spare yet he couldn't. I was forcing him to leave after the xmas party instead but he insists. Ofcourse i was sad and all. We talked at my place again and i started crying again for some reason.. (I cry all the time you see.. Haha!) Again he was looking deep into my eyes, seriously. Then he just burst out this smile and had me laughing with my eyes filled. Haha! And weird talaga namin. Haha. I think naconvince co na sya about leaving after the party.



Thank God. Amen. ;)

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Myko.

Wala lang.




Gazillion things are currently running through my mind and i'm all fed up of this "what if's" and "mights".. I'm just so confused and worried about what my future would turn out to be. Yes, this is another blog about me and my life (which i meant was myko) hhe.

After all the realizations i did for the past days or maybe weeks, I'm still in this in-doubt moment of what i really want to do and how i want everything to become. I may sound weird and all, but you wouldn't even understand no matter how i tell you, cause simply, you're not in my shoes.

I've been undergoing through this weird moments wherein the whole world just stops for some time and it kinda gives me this moment to think about everything. And whenever i "think", i suffer through this unexplainable and unbearable feeling. Sometimes i just wanna cry or burst out laughing but the bottomline is, i have no reason to do so.

I'm not mentally ill or anything, but it seems that my happy momentums are about to end, and time passes very quickly, im still not prepared to let go of the memories i've experienced and still want to continue collecting more.

I maybe too young too say this now, but all i want and all i need to be secure and happy for as the moment, is the ASSURANCE that he'll be with me through thick and thin, through near or far, through all of there obstacles in life. He's all i ever wanted all this time, and i just can't afford to lose him.

BOTTOMLINE?

Take everything away from me, just not him. Seriously.

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Sharing

Before i go to bed, i have this two realizations to share.

One. Gustong gusto ko katext ang boyfriend ko kapag lasing sya. :) Why? Sobrang sweet nya. Hehe, super kilig to the bones. And diba, puro truth? I just love him.


Two.
Man, Being pessimistic will get you nowhere. Look at all possible bright sides of every image. I'm not referring to a particular person, but.. You see, i've been NOT WANTING a relaionship for a long time, i wasn't even looking or finding one. Love is nowhere to be searched for. It would be found and discovered right then and there. You shouldn't hurry. I know i'm just too young to say this, but i think i know what i'm talking about. Just have fun and not think of it, and one surprising day, when you already forgot about all the hurt and all the negativity it once brought, you'd notice it knocking by your doorstep. OVER AGAIN. :)


I'm so inspired and so inlove. :)


Goodnight.

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Good Day Or Bad One?

First of all, we won champion at Mimosa cheerdance competition. We were overjoyed. ;)

But I have this thing bothering me, He IS SOOOOOO COLD!!! Why? That, i don't know. He won't tell me, and it keeps me wondering about it ALL the fuckin time! The night before i argued with him for not telling me where he was since it was late na.. Syempre, it would be pissing me off kasi i'm his GF, duh? I should know. :| Bf have obligations too, right? When he smsed me, i only replied with very dry atmosphere. (grmr? HAHA) Tapos, he started getting pissed and telling me i'm always arguing with him.. MERON AKONG DAHILAN!! hello? I just shut the hell up and let him did the talking. I thought he was only tired.. but the next day.. HE WAS SOOOOOO DRY! I really wanted to cry but i was with my friends.. :| He didn't even want to reply to my messages, He didn't wanna come to see me.. He didn't even want to tell me what's wrong! So how the hell am i suppose to understand him? It was freakish. And up to now, He's still acting like it. :|




I Just wanna SOB.

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Scholar-wanna be

I wanna be one. Kasi, ung mate ko, scholar sya and she doesn't pay for anything. :D O diba ang saya ata nun.

Exams nanaman at hindi ako nagrereview. Nakakatamad tapos nangangarap pa ko maging scholar. HHAHA. dream on. Sa school na lang. :|

Sakit ng ulo co. At Medyo namomoblema. ;D Carry lang.

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Next to you?

Nagaway nanaman kami. :| Won't tell who. But someone IMPORTANT ofcourse. (fyi, special differ from important) So Yun. Parang ang babaw ng pinagawayan nmin o napakaInsensitive ko lang? Sawang sawa na ko sa arguements sa buhay ko. Pag uwi ko sa bahay sermon. Pagkachat, away. What else?


FUCK LIFE. deym it.

it's pass 11 and im still online just finished my RUSHED project. hhe. Pero infairness ganda nung drawing ko (atleast, for me.) tribal cross. Show ko tom. xp

Kahit na gano katagal kami nawalan ng communication at sama mo na ang pagfade ng feelings sa isa't isa, with just one look, all of those efforts to move on just got down the drain and here i am again. I can't get up. :| We may not be as GOOD as before but i know for myself something is up, and something should be. No one knows kung.. may mangyyre. But we'll never know. Baka MEANT to be. Baka HINDE.

Kung ako sayo, make a move. I never know kung seryoso ka. Kasi sa sarili ko, i thought, u never really did took me seriously before. Sana this time for real naman pwede? Kasi super torn apart na ko eh.


Goodnight.

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Nice and Slow

Usher is so LALALALALALOVE!! Hoho. Now Bangin; Nice and Slow. :D


There was a practice held yesterday. Kaming 10 pero 5 lang kami. Hha. Kuya Tan kasi. 7:30 na ko nakauwi at di pa ko pinancn ng ermat ko. Kumusta naman un? 7:30 lang naman. Buti sana kung 9. Hindi naman siguro ako gr.6 at nakatira sa MAYNILA diba. Mejo Babyng-baby pa ata ako. hha.
Ewan ko ba ba't gnun. Alam ko concerned sila pero bakit yung iba, hindi? :| Konting trust at faith lang kelangan. Pampanga naman to. Hay nako. x[

Pero okay na. wala naman ako magawa. Buti nga ako umuuwi kagad e. (haha. anyway, obligasyon ko naman umuwi ng maaga.) Pero diba, Malapit na ko mag graduating ng highschool, Sabi nga nila, Masaya ang highschool.. Eh baka sa sobrang BAWAL, di ko maexperience ung "saya" talaga. :|

Gusto ko Maexperience ng SLEEPOVERS, INUMAN hangang UMAGA, GAGOHAN, HINDI PAGUWI NG UMAGA, ung mga highschool stuff. :|

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Cherifer?

Naisip co, ayaw ko na magnurse. bakit? HELLO? Andame ng nurse. Ever. Gusto ko tourism(stewardess) pero Bansot ako. Hmmp. Paraan?


cherifer!!


pero, Hindi pwede sakin un. :( Nakakalakas ng appetite yun e. Hay!

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relevance?

teka, anong relevance ng post ko kanina sa title nya? "age matters"
haha. hindi ko nakwento. Basta, may gusto akong 2nd year eh. :D

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RESOLUTION

for the cheering compe. :D

my resolution;

no BEER! x]

must have a small belly! HAHA. since the costume will be makin me show some belly fats. xD shame!

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Back Pain

Reasons Of Back Pain:
1. It's the first day of my monthly visitor. lmao
2. Danced.
3. Wrong posture ( kuba mode while using my laptop).

So yan ang kwento ng aking Blog title. :)) (which is Back pain)

I got home mga 6:30 pm na. Kasi nag audition pa kami (mga PAC members) to qualify for the competition. Para mapili for the ones to compete on the cheerdance competition sa clark.
So ayon. Masaya ako. :)

May isa pa kong problema: NO CELLY CREDIT. :| (hihi, may crisis na. xD)




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Girl's intricate problem: Boys.

Lesson learned? Boys are pure suckers. If Bees sting, Boys Suck.
I really don't know what's up with me, why i'm acting as if i boys did something really wrong. Nothing. Cruel Much eh? I just discovered intricate. lol.


I can always live and be without any LOVE in my life. lol. Pero syempre, that would be so dull diba? Pero what for? iiyak ka nanaman. Wee. NonSense din e. So ayun. Nababaliw nanaman ako. (:

Today was not anything beyond random days i always experience. My CRUSH? naah. I changed my mind. Hindi ko na sya crush. (: Bakit? Secret. He'll remain cute though.

So that's it. Enough of the story.

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FART!

sabi ni Fart.. wag na ako mapride.. mag sorry na ako.. wag ko na ulitin ung ginawa ko..
TAMA. :)


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Wow, tagalog!

Bakit? Wala lang. (; Yesterday (July 3) I broke up with Carlos na. Reason? Feeling ko wala akong boyfriend. Parang wala lang, So bakit hindi pa tapusin. Ang demanding co siguro pero tama naman ako e. :|

Mas nanaman kanina. Ang Init. :| Nakakaantok. Siguro di lang tlga ako Holy. xD Ganun parin sa room namin, Still the POPULAR MICROWAVE ROOM. Hot diba?

Ayon, ganun pa rin. Same old routine.. Aral.. Drawing.. Daldal..Kaen.. Kakasawa. Pero Okay naman. Hello? Paano na ang future! haha. Since friday ngayon, dapat aalis ako after class magpapaprint eh wala akong pera at wala akong kasama at hindi ako nkapagpaalam. So pano?

PagUwi ko, nagaway kame ng ermat ko. Bsta ayun, mahabang kwento. Crying moment pa nga ako e. May point sya pero di nya ko gets. Pero gets ko sya. Ah bsta, bhala na si batman! Basta ako malinis naman conscience ko eh. Behave naman ako.. Pero get ko naman ung point nya na baka may mangyareng masama or anything.. pero ang gulo. Syempre friends mo yun diba. Friends ko naman sila. Okay, fault ko na. (sabay lunok) joke. xD



Osha. Sabi nga ni FART, magsorry na ako. osige. hay nako. ang taas kasi ng pride ko. leche. haha.




WOW PHILIPPINES.

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Miles

Miles ang nilakad ko kanina pauwi. Naisip ko kasi kailangan ko magtipid. For? Wala lang. Kaya naglakad ako pauwi. :))) Kung susumahin di naman sya masyado malayo, pero malayo. =)))

For Manila people, parang Mary's hanggang Philam. Tapos ung tipong ikaw lang magisa naglalakad. Mas malayo un diba? Kasi malungkot. :|


I have a conversation to share: (but please, keep your mouths shut.)

Beau Bitch: dapat kay ** ako kinikilig hindi kay *. OKAY?
nina bernardo: hahahaha
nina bernardo: wapen!!
nina bernardo: isa lng ibig sbhn dun!!
Beau Bitch: gusto ko pa sya
Beau Bitch:
Beau Bitch: punyeta.
Beau Bitch: dapat di ko na sya mkta.
nina bernardo: c * ang mahal moh ndi c **!!!
Beau Bitch: Hinde pwede yun.
nina bernardo: hahaha
nina bernardo: pwede un!!!
Beau Bitch: Di naman si * Bf ko, si **.
nina bernardo: prng ang tawag nian kai ** ayyy.....
nina bernardo: PANAKIP BUTAS!!!
Beau Bitch: Buti nalang hindi kami magkaschool ni **.
Beau Bitch: Hindi ko sya panakip butas.
Beau Bitch: Kasi hindi ko mahal si *.
Beau Bitch: Namimis ko lang siguro sya.
nina bernardo: hmmpp.. ewan koh sau.. sbhn moh n gusto mong sbhn..
Beau Bitch: gusto ko si **, PERFECT e. HALOS.
Beau Bitch: pero anung mggwa ko..
Beau Bitch: di ako kinikilig.
Beau Bitch: pero siguro matututunan ko rin sya mahalin in time..
nina bernardo: kc nga d moh cia mhl!!!
Beau Bitch: matututunan ko rin un..

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