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Ola! This is my Blog, and obviously it's cute, i know. So much for the bragging part, As i stated, this is MINE and so as the contents. Everything that's seen here is my property (unless stated not) and you cannot rip them, unless permitted.
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Promenade.

Prom was great. Tiring much. :)

My gown looked like this:



It's blue violet and its so darn long, tube and fitted. :)) HAHAHA.

Before heading to school my friends and i had a photoshoot here are the "behind the scenes" take HAHA.




Too bad myko wasn't there.

Anyway, Bon and I were late so we were required to pay 100 php! Damn. :)))

I got to dance with a lot of people. Lemme list the ones i didn't forget.

Myko, my first dance
Fart
Marcelo
Fiver
Sir Vids
Julian
Joman
Homer
Wally
Palo
CJ
Caster
Ponce, Last dance aha
Tipay
Bespren
Latap
Jhansen
Donato
Deang

I can't remember the rest. :)) Sorry! :D

Twas a lot. My feet still hurts like hell until now.

Anyway, Myko gave me a rose! HAHAHA. Achievement un, So big deal na big deal sakin un. HAHA. First time. And ung rose na un kinuha nya lang sa table HAHAH.

Hirit nya pa "may bibigay ako sayo" sabay kuha ng rose sa likod. HAHA.
Natawa ako sbi ko, "alam ko kng san mo knuha to"
Tumawa kame and we said "dyan sa table"
tas sbi nya "buti nga binigyan kta eh"
HAHAHAH.

Tapos Fart asked me to dance again, we danced for like 3 times or more.
Sbi ko, alukin mo ko ng pormal. I was seating. Then sabi ko Hold the rose with your lips and kneel :)))

He did! :))))) trip lang namin un. HAHAHA.

KAKATAWA.


More pictures on friendster. :D

We didn't only dance sweet music, we dance like we're in a disco too. HAHA. mukha akong first lady and i danced like a party animal :)))) FUN.

And eventually, my gown turned into a DOORMAT sa sobrang dameng footprints. :)))

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one thing i can't let go

There are things in our life that we can't simply let go. No matter how much we got hurt, no matter what hell it's making us go through, no matter how much you wanted to give it up, still you can't 'just leave it behind. Even if your emotions are already giving in and can't take it anymore, there's still this "part" of us that's holding on and still hopes for a better outcome; "Maybe someday, things will get better.. I can still wait for that moment."

I came to the point that i no longer know what to choose. I'm the victim of my own feelings. A part of me says "Stop it, it's stupid." but another screams "Don't risk it for love's sake." Oh yes i love him. I really do. It's crazy cause it's really stupid. To think that i'm still here, striving to make it and still be with him through each unloving day of our relationship. It's no good. Every damn night i cry because i feel unloved and unimportant to the person i value the most. It hurts more every time i recall the saying; "If you think the person you Love doesn't love you, then you're right. For if he does, there's no way he'll make you feel he doesn't." It' s crap.

I'm jut so sober thinking of what i'd do. Shall i still hold on to this relationship? It's geting worse and worse and worse and worse. I just can't take the tears anymore. I love him but im torn apart. I want to stay but it's like he's pushing me away. So how?

I called him up, crying. Crying my heart and eyes out. I cried so hard i can barely breathe! He wasn't even talking. He doesn't want me to give up. He loves me. But why is he making things hard for me? We're just going on the wrong way. It's geting pointless. He told me not to leave and things shall get better. It's just a part of our God damn relationship and i should remain strong for the good times sake. I don't know. I still didn't feel any better after all those things he told me. Cause i heard all of those a hundred times, and they weren't for real. I guess it didn't register to my "understanding".

I continued to cry. I thought of leaving him right then and there. But I can't. I love him so much i'm still willing to get hurt one or two more time(s). Just few more tries, i said to myself. And there's this one thing he told me that keeps echoing in my head, "Dapat walang iwanan."

Yes, walang iwanan, lalakasan ko na loob ko, this time. ;)

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Happy looks good on me or not

I'm just feeling enthusiastic or wishing i were. I don't know, i'm just plain bored and can't think of anything to blog about since today was an empty day. It's evening and still nothing exciting. I'm feeling, fine and neutral. That's a good thing compared to being down and sober. :D Hehe.

I just noticed some people changed their blog urls. Namely Andi and Darlene. Hehe, Season to change? I've been thinking if i also want to change mine, but i'm too lazy to hop on everyone's blog and broadcast my supposed-to-be-new url. :D Haha. So, i'll just stick to this one, it's fine, don't you think?

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Cried him a river

The worst ever habit i have is, crying. I've turned into this crybaby. HAHA. I cry even for the most shallowest things done by him. Bsta, i cry. Un na un. That's my point!

Lately i've been in this crying situation again, and it just sucked so much. But on the bright side, i felt better after the session and proved his much more deeper love for me. And the story goes..

Wala, textmate lang. Binigdeal ko! Well, i'm really that kind of a jealous girlfriend. Sobrang selosa ako. And it just hurted so much cause it felt like he was tryna' get rid of me in any way kasi he had this textmate back in our "fight" days noong pagdiriwang. So i felt so bad, and i mean so baaaad! At first i thought i could get through what im feeling without shedding a tear or two, but i failed. I stayed quiet hugging him and after like a moment, tears just kept flowing on and on and on... I'm not mad at him or anything but i am soooo jealous and sobrang hurt ko. I never thought he'd do such thing even if it was just a textmate. I still find it huge of a deal. He was getting all worried and keeps on nagging me to tell him what was up, if i was mad or anything else. He just looked so sincere and there was i, continuing my drama scene! He hugged me so tight, told me he was utterly sorry.. Kissed me sooo long and just stared deep in my eyes. It was my best drama scene so far. But that scene didn't keep me from bursting these tears out, Still.

Until i felt fine na and told him what was up with me, and how i felt about it. He eventually deleted the "contact" (hopefully) and told me his sincerest sorry and promised something. It was then i found out i cried for a thing that was so not worth crying. Without knowing the full details would really make you feel bad if you were in my shoes, but when he told me his SHORT story about it, i just saw myself laughing at my previous self. But in some way, i still find what i did was good, right and worth it. Cause for a shallow-cryer like me, it's worth shedding tears for. The "detail" was; they only exchanged about 10 sms. That's it. So wasn't i over reacting?

I guess yes but i hope not. It still hurts a bit even though it's just that. But yeah, im soo fragile.


Goodnight. :)

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Dance. Tests. Laughtrip. Eight.

Escaped from class. =)) --wholeday!

Yes, that's something to be happy about. I was excused whole day from all of my classes today. Due to our practice for the cultural night, we'll be dancing kasi. So ayon. K bye. HAHA.

Some test papers were checked today. I got "okay" grades.
Chemistry - 50/80 (im not sure of the number of items)
Filipino - 63/100
English - 47/70

My scores weren't that bad, but they're not as good as well. I'm not contented. I know i could've done better. But My marks were very high for someone who didn't study her lessons right? Cause i didn't study at all! =))) I'm lazy but im NATURALLY smart. I don't need tons of kasipagan to pass. Hoho!
I just really really really really really smart.


We had our practice kanina as stated above and it's not as tiring as before. Which is a good thing. Super LAUGHTRIP lang kami ni Monik kanina. We were singing songs out of tune and mali mali ang lyrics. Tapos alam nyo ung sa LOW "the baggy sweat pants and the reeboks with the straps.." Sabi ni monik, "the Magazine.." Haha. Just imagine her singing that part with the word magazine changing the Baggy sweat pants. It's just damn funny in person. =)) Tapos we were laughing for a lot of other reasons pa hangang sa sobrang sakit na ng tyan namin. Humirit sya which really made me laugh so hard.. Kasi diba when you tend to laugh ung super hard, you like hurt your stomach, ung sensation na para kang nagsisit-ups. Right? So, Nung tawa kami ng tawa bigla nyang sinabi, "Ang sakit na ng tyan ko, Nagkakaabs ka na ba?" HAHAHAHAHA. It was hella ... Uh.. Super funny. HAHAHA. K fine, mukhang ako lang ang tumatawa ngayon. :|

After that laughing incident, wala na. =)))) Myko waited for me up to 6 30, appreciated. :) Touch! Tapos pilit nya pang inaamoy ang kili kili kong mabaho na. Duhh? Nagpractice kaya ako. So yun, Mabaho na tlga. :)) We were with Caster and Fart. Inaasar nila akong tatlo na ang baho ko na daw. Cruel much! Tas humirit si myko "Kahit naman gano kabaho yan, natitiis ko naman" HAHAHA. It's something like that but much more sweeter. Weh, so kinilig ba ko? Slight! HAHAHA.


K fine. Goodnight. :)
Viii lang, forever. :P

May ginawa pala akong quote:


"I got you, You got me We're just so meant to be."

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Hello Change!

Hello, change! :D


New Skin. Hot eh? I find it very beautiful. Nothing much about it, and that's what makes it nice. :)
Too many details sometimes confuses people looking towards it and draws attention to the not-so important things and mistakenly ignores the MAIN agenda that's really behind it. Talagang inelaborate ko ang pananaw ko. Haha.

Today was our finals in Social, Chem & Mapeh. Social was a piece of cake! ... Piece of cake to cheat! Man, it was so easy. =))) (Bad student!) Mapeh was cool too. I knew the answers talaga though i prepared a note. (I was so naughty talaga.) And Chem was, Fine. :) That was the only HONEST test i took for today. ;) I'm quiet confident i did pass it.

Spent the rest of the day with my Boyfriend suffering through his very very very very very smelly farts. =)))) Damn was it sooooo horrible! Anyway, he had a bad stomach since yesterday, that's why. Pagaling ka na hon. :P

Math, THE, English is our test tomorrow, it's an easy one. Except for MATH. Oh well, Bahala na si batman. ;)


Goodnight!

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Tomorrow!

Blog title: TOMORROW. Why?

I'll finally get rid of this girly girl theme of mine.. tomorrow.
And we'll have our tests tomorrow. ;)

Wish me luck, i need loads of it!


Kwento? tomorrow narin. =DDDD

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After 25 years

And yes, i've been lazy so we really need to do a lot of catching up.

4 months na kami and still going strong and unbeatable as ever. Challenges are popping out one by one but gladly we're being able to pass through it with smiling hearts. :D He's been changing percent by percent and i'm happy about this GOOD change. I feel more needed and essential to him now. I'm currently wearing my his jacket now kasi para akong lalagnatin. :| Why? Don't ask. It's quiet confidential and i can't tell the world about it. Kanina, or i mean kagabe, i got mad at him. So ang sama tlga ng loob ko. All because he won't keep his word. He'd always say yes but ends up with a no. Get it? Once he tell you, or agreed with you for a deal, he'll end up breaking it. It sucks and hurtful of course cause it's like im NO ONE. And I don't really matter at all. I got all mad and dissapointed. But kanina, he went here. I was still mad and stuff and throwing things at him (brutal ko! haha) but i ended up crying. Hay, sobrang iyak ako ng iyak so now my eyes are sore and my nose is stuffed. :| Later part of our drama (or my drama) session kanina, we ended up being okay na and hugging. :')


I guess my year started (quiet) right so far. Except from a sin i/we just comitted. Oh well, Forgive me God. Another thing was i gained wait weight (i spelled it WAIT tlga. haha.), and by that i mean a lot of it. Wala lang, ang laki ng tyan ko. :| Grrr! Food!



I can't type no more na, I feel so exhausted. :) Next time!
Goodnight!

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One LAST.

We're fine. Grabe, love na love nya pala tlga ako. After our fight, we went from arguing to being freezing cold until i called it a day, I stopped texting him. Tapos, Nung madaling araw tinext nya ko. Sobrang heart warming kasi sorry sya ng sorry. I guess narealize nya na. So yun, mahal nya tlga ako. =D

This is the last post for this year. So long 200EIGHT. This year has been like a new high step for me. It's when i learned about REAL teen stuff. Ive had this progress. I've changed. =D I learned to love where i am now dearly. :D Ayoko na nga umalis eh. Mahal ko na section ko, new friends and other acquiantances. I'm so happy.

I've danced to the beat of my heart and eventually got the people around me dancing too. =)
This is one heart-aching, heart breaking, kiss and make up, super changing YEAR! :D

Highlights:

New Section! :D
Inuman sessions!
Barkada Bondings =D
Going to.. =D
Mr. and Ms. Un 1st runners.
PAC performances and comptitions.
Problems that made me strong
New Friends and close ones
and..
Meeting my 08 :)


Happy new year! :D

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11 more days!

Eleven days na lang. Haha! Sabik ako! Sabik na sabik na! :))))) Hindi na ako magkandaUgaga dito. Wut The Feck? Tas hindi ko pa sya nakatext ng mabuti ngaung araw na to! Darn It GLOBE!Suckiy much! You're ruining the effin day! K. I'm soooo angry. Haha. Well, not really. I've cool down already and it's freezin cold. Brr! Connection? Lumamig na ang mainit kong ulo! haha.

My body is achin, a lot! My steps na kami sa How Do I Breathe and Past halfway through Shawty Get Loose. Twas hard kasi we have to familiarize ourselves to new steps since we created our own.We'll carry on! Haha. I have to arrange pa ung songs na sasayawin namin. Maybe;

Papichulo, Because Of You, How do i breathe, Burn, Shawty Get Loose, Candy Shop, Shake, Bounce, Sexy Love, Nsync (tearin up my heart)
and the rest i can't remember na.

Ayaw naman namin sumayaw eh! :)) 10 songs lang naman ung naka list above diba? Haha!
Di naman buong song! siguro 30-1 minute or ung iba 2 minutes per song. ;D

Tapos tomorrow sasayaw pa kami sa Palmera. ;) Orayt, It's tiring! And namimis ko na tlga sya kasi he used to be there or he's always there everytime we do our practices and fetches and brings me home after performance. I guess i have to go home on my own muna. ;) Weeeh! Nagdrama eh noh! haha. Temporary lang naman. ;)

Masaya ako ngayon kasi, iloveyou so much na! :D (ako lang ata nakakagets nito. haha.)

Osha, babasa pa ko ng ebook ko. :) 4th Chapter na ko. :)
Goodnight!

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5 days before christmas

I woke up early today. I don't know why, but i slept real late last night. The first thing i did was read my e-book, Twilight. I'm done with the 10-page (i think) 1st chapter. I've decided to read atleast one chapter a day to be able to finish the book withing 24 days. :) The 1st chapter was quiet familiar since i watched the movie (i think everything will be quiet familiar naman. haha.)

It's 5 days before Christmas and i want to receive lots of gifts. I know i would hardly receive any since my relatives think im BIG now, rather than that kid they used to love those days, i was so cute then! (oh well, im pretty na. NOW) Sana i could be with him on this special day, that would be so sweet. Our first Christmas together as a couple. O dba. So much for fantasies, it can't happen. (ahayy..) I shouldn't be sober. I should be happy pa nga kasi masaya sya dun, but i can't help being a little emotional at times. Haha! (ang babaw!) I'm a bit too worried baka kasi naughty sya dun, or he's drinking too much or puffs a lot. I trust him naman, but i have this instincts/worries/mights. (yea, we have this girlfriend-instincts nowadays:)

I'm really acting eerie. I'm not his mother anyway. I trust him PERIOD. End of story. I know, He won't act foolish and won't dissappoint me. I know it, He loves me enough. I've been blogging about this insecurities of mine all throughout this week! It's ruining the Should-be-joyful atmosphere in here. I'm not really insecure or what, i'm just PARAAAANNNOOOOIIIDDD.
It sucks. Really.

I'm acting like this all because i don't have anything to focus my attention on. If only i can go out with friends, I can but i don't have bucks. Bored, that's all i am and will be this vacation. I think it's a bit too long. Haha! And when classes resume, for sure i'll be disoriented. I think everyone will be. I wanna do something fun, recreational and time consuming. I wonder WHAT it is.

Darlene is so mean for posting on her blog that she knew my secret. Yea, i know it's unexpected for her to know cause she thought i was this good girl. HAHA! Oh well, i trust her enough so i told her. Love ko sya eh.


Ciao!

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Good Morning

Good morning. It's 1:07 am and i'm still wide awake. I don't think i'm sleepy yet. I've been thinking about him. I'm so crazy and paranoid. I can't sleep. It's so cold. Connection? Haha. Ah bsta.

Robynn is so kapal. Check his Y!M status. Crush ko daw sya nung nasa galang pa kami, eh hindi naman! haha. Okay, so much for dreams. haha. Joke Rob!

Goodnight for me. :)

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Thanks to technology!

E-books are so handy!

I have my twilight series now! WooHoo! They were e-books. E-books are copies of books (exact copies) in the computer. Meaning, instead of reading them in hardbound papers, you can read it on your computers. And it's free (if you know how to research:)

I'm happy, atlast i can start reading it. I don't need to buy the 600php book. I'd spent that money on pampering myself nalang. ;) Aright Aright! The e-books were pdf documents.

So yeah, i already have a gift for my ever so loving friend/closefriend/bestfriend ninya. If she doesn't like it on the computer, i'll have it print instead. ;) Rather than buy the book! aha! I was so clever, wasn't I? :D

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Hanging habagat!

It's freaking cold.. Huuuuuugggg! Oh well. He's not here, i guess i have to bear with the temperature with my jacket instead. Haha! poor me! I miss him loads!

2 weeks na lang, we'll see each other na. I'm so excited! Haha. I may sound very.. uhmm.. paranoid? idk. can't find the right word! xD Bsta, i wanna see him so badly na. As in.

I'm still bothered with the girly girl theme of my blog. It's so pink! I'm pissed. Haha. My efforts are gonna be sayang naman if i change the theme. I can't seem to configure kasi ung font color no matter how i try. If i change it, nothing happens. Grr!

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"almost break up"

Yesterday was such a day! (I meant yesterday's yesterday -- so technically, it's the OTHER DAY) so much for elaborating. But yeah, it's not a "day" for a good reason but for a bad one. It was fucked up! But before all the bad stuff, i want you all to know that i have a bruised and bloated right hand. Haha! Kasi Myko and I were playing this KETCHUP game. Haha. Alam mo yon? ;p

Twas late afternoon when things got a little awkward. We fought about this shallow thing and was dug deep prior to this "something" he knew from a friend which was not true. And wtf, he believed it. So he got mad and stuff, acting like i've got this huge fault but really,
i didn't do anything, and to think, this "thing" wasn't even true!
I talked to him and seemed like i was talking to the air. I just can't stop the tears from falling, until i saw myself crying before him. It hurted like hell, well ofcourse his in doubt of what im telling him. He believes the other person more than his girlfriend. He wanted to break up with me. It's the feeling of being.. unloved?.. or.. oh well, can't find the right word. He walked out and i chased him. I pulled his arm and he turned around. I was crying, crying everything out. (to think that we were in school haha)
He just looked at me. Stared deep in my eyes. Tapos he held me, said sorry, and hugged.
I didn't stop crying there. Eh kasi naman naiiyak talaga ako! We went to my place and talked. Umiyak nanaman ako. Wtf. Until I stopped and both sides said everything. So yun, naayos din.

The next day, my eyes were SORE. O_O and...

He was cold. :| It wasn't really about me, it's more like his personal problem that he won't bother to share. I was totally clueless and asking what's wrong all the fucking time. He won't really tell me. So i let him.. It was awkward. Yea, im his gf and i know nothing about it. While his friends know. It's unfair. He told me he won't be attending the xmas party. I got dissapointed. Ofcourse it wouldn't be a party for me without him. :| Uuwe na daw kasi sya ng tarlac the day before the party. For some reason... He wanted me to understand. But how could i? If i know nothing about what's going on? It's 1 day to spare yet he couldn't. I was forcing him to leave after the xmas party instead but he insists. Ofcourse i was sad and all. We talked at my place again and i started crying again for some reason.. (I cry all the time you see.. Haha!) Again he was looking deep into my eyes, seriously. Then he just burst out this smile and had me laughing with my eyes filled. Haha! And weird talaga namin. Haha. I think naconvince co na sya about leaving after the party.



Thank God. Amen. ;)

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Stop it emo!

I know i was emo in the last post. Minsan lang, pagbigyan na. K?

I wanna have something to be busy about. Yung tipong, i'd be so busy. My life is boring me. It simply gets worse everyday. I just hope, not.

I'm sort of feeling like a pessimist now, but just a while ago, i thought of these wonderful possitive things again, so friends, don't worry. I'll be fine. :)


-- and in case i can't afford to be one, I'd still strive to. =D


"i love you more!"
- ang nireply sakin ni myko nung nagreklamo ako dahil loveyoutoo lang ang sagot nya sa "iloveyousomuch" ko. HAHA. at mukhang napilitan pa sya. Haha. Sharing.

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