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Ola! This is my Blog, and obviously it's cute, i know. So much for the bragging part, As i stated, this is MINE and so as the contents. Everything that's seen here is my property (unless stated not) and you cannot rip them, unless permitted.
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One LAST.

We're fine. Grabe, love na love nya pala tlga ako. After our fight, we went from arguing to being freezing cold until i called it a day, I stopped texting him. Tapos, Nung madaling araw tinext nya ko. Sobrang heart warming kasi sorry sya ng sorry. I guess narealize nya na. So yun, mahal nya tlga ako. =D

This is the last post for this year. So long 200EIGHT. This year has been like a new high step for me. It's when i learned about REAL teen stuff. Ive had this progress. I've changed. =D I learned to love where i am now dearly. :D Ayoko na nga umalis eh. Mahal ko na section ko, new friends and other acquiantances. I'm so happy.

I've danced to the beat of my heart and eventually got the people around me dancing too. =)
This is one heart-aching, heart breaking, kiss and make up, super changing YEAR! :D

Highlights:

New Section! :D
Inuman sessions!
Barkada Bondings =D
Going to.. =D
Mr. and Ms. Un 1st runners.
PAC performances and comptitions.
Problems that made me strong
New Friends and close ones
and..
Meeting my 08 :)


Happy new year! :D

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Neutral

It's 2:40 am and i'm still wide awake. I should be sleeping tight now, snoring, saliva dripping and all.. But how come i'm still in front of my laptop, typing? It's eerie, i know. I'm asking myself. I've been thinking about my year's highlights. Since I'll surely post it here on my blog. I want to be able to list all of them as much as possible but the problem is, will i remember?

I'm feeling neutral. I'm not happy and not sobbering anymore. I think i'm fine. I was thinking about him all night (and morning). How things should and would work out. Will they appear fine and actually find him realizing his mistakes? Or maybe not. I just hope that he still knows what he's been doing and making me feel like. Yes, I'm fragile. So if you really value me, you'll be sensitive. I'm not as fragile as other girls are, i'm not that. I just thirst for YOUR appreciation and cmon, admit your mistakes man. Be smart enough to notice what's wrong. Cause baby i know, it's not me. I won't directly tell you what it is, So you gotta go figure for yourself. So you'll learn. Cause really, you're one spoiled boyfriend.


And by that, i meant.. Well yeah, i spoiled you. Brat! Iloveyou.


Goodnight. I'll just read my way to sleep. (or write.)

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Why I'm sad

I'm sad cause he doesn't value me much. :( I'm feeling as if i'm not appreciated enough. I don't get credit for every sacrifice i do. I just wanna be understood and followed. That's all. Don't i deserve it? He won't follow and he won't let a piece of him listen to me and even try to understand what i'm fighting for. I get tired at times too. I'm human, I have a heart, i have feelings, i get hurt. :| I can't understand you forever. I can't do all these sacrifices. I can't cry all the damn time. I'm hurt. There's still time to change, there is. I still love you, nothing's changed. Don't worry. I'm still yours. :')

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Sober

Im very sad. :(

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6th Chapter

I'm on Chapter 6 now on Twilight. :) I guess i better sleep now before i get my eyes dug dip like pit falls. =)))))



Goodnight!(again)
11 more days!

Eleven days na lang. Haha! Sabik ako! Sabik na sabik na! :))))) Hindi na ako magkandaUgaga dito. Wut The Feck? Tas hindi ko pa sya nakatext ng mabuti ngaung araw na to! Darn It GLOBE!Suckiy much! You're ruining the effin day! K. I'm soooo angry. Haha. Well, not really. I've cool down already and it's freezin cold. Brr! Connection? Lumamig na ang mainit kong ulo! haha.

My body is achin, a lot! My steps na kami sa How Do I Breathe and Past halfway through Shawty Get Loose. Twas hard kasi we have to familiarize ourselves to new steps since we created our own.We'll carry on! Haha. I have to arrange pa ung songs na sasayawin namin. Maybe;

Papichulo, Because Of You, How do i breathe, Burn, Shawty Get Loose, Candy Shop, Shake, Bounce, Sexy Love, Nsync (tearin up my heart)
and the rest i can't remember na.

Ayaw naman namin sumayaw eh! :)) 10 songs lang naman ung naka list above diba? Haha!
Di naman buong song! siguro 30-1 minute or ung iba 2 minutes per song. ;D

Tapos tomorrow sasayaw pa kami sa Palmera. ;) Orayt, It's tiring! And namimis ko na tlga sya kasi he used to be there or he's always there everytime we do our practices and fetches and brings me home after performance. I guess i have to go home on my own muna. ;) Weeeh! Nagdrama eh noh! haha. Temporary lang naman. ;)

Masaya ako ngayon kasi, iloveyou so much na! :D (ako lang ata nakakagets nito. haha.)

Osha, babasa pa ko ng ebook ko. :) 4th Chapter na ko. :)
Goodnight!

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Dunks and Kicks!





I WANT THESE SO BAD!!
hahay... gusto ko tlga. iipon muna ako ng 5000! nako! haha.

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Perspired.

Yea, i'm all tired. I've been trying to get these steps of some song but i can't seem to do so kasi hindi ko makita ng detailed ung moves. Oh well, papalearn ko nlng kari lewell bukas. Haha.
On 23, hopefully makasayaw ako for Palmera's xmas party. Sana payagan ako, hindi pa kasi ako nagpapaalam sa dad ko! =))))

On 28 naman, we'll be auditioning for HAU openhaus dance competition. Nagbabakasakali lang naman. ;) first ever. ng dance crew namin. --xplod (explode) So ayun. :D

I'm tired, gusto ko pa maligo kaso it's very late na, bukas na lang.


Goodnight!

miss ko na syaaaa! haha.

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5 days before christmas

I woke up early today. I don't know why, but i slept real late last night. The first thing i did was read my e-book, Twilight. I'm done with the 10-page (i think) 1st chapter. I've decided to read atleast one chapter a day to be able to finish the book withing 24 days. :) The 1st chapter was quiet familiar since i watched the movie (i think everything will be quiet familiar naman. haha.)

It's 5 days before Christmas and i want to receive lots of gifts. I know i would hardly receive any since my relatives think im BIG now, rather than that kid they used to love those days, i was so cute then! (oh well, im pretty na. NOW) Sana i could be with him on this special day, that would be so sweet. Our first Christmas together as a couple. O dba. So much for fantasies, it can't happen. (ahayy..) I shouldn't be sober. I should be happy pa nga kasi masaya sya dun, but i can't help being a little emotional at times. Haha! (ang babaw!) I'm a bit too worried baka kasi naughty sya dun, or he's drinking too much or puffs a lot. I trust him naman, but i have this instincts/worries/mights. (yea, we have this girlfriend-instincts nowadays:)

I'm really acting eerie. I'm not his mother anyway. I trust him PERIOD. End of story. I know, He won't act foolish and won't dissappoint me. I know it, He loves me enough. I've been blogging about this insecurities of mine all throughout this week! It's ruining the Should-be-joyful atmosphere in here. I'm not really insecure or what, i'm just PARAAAANNNOOOOIIIDDD.
It sucks. Really.

I'm acting like this all because i don't have anything to focus my attention on. If only i can go out with friends, I can but i don't have bucks. Bored, that's all i am and will be this vacation. I think it's a bit too long. Haha! And when classes resume, for sure i'll be disoriented. I think everyone will be. I wanna do something fun, recreational and time consuming. I wonder WHAT it is.

Darlene is so mean for posting on her blog that she knew my secret. Yea, i know it's unexpected for her to know cause she thought i was this good girl. HAHA! Oh well, i trust her enough so i told her. Love ko sya eh.


Ciao!

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Good Morning

Good morning. It's 1:07 am and i'm still wide awake. I don't think i'm sleepy yet. I've been thinking about him. I'm so crazy and paranoid. I can't sleep. It's so cold. Connection? Haha. Ah bsta.

Robynn is so kapal. Check his Y!M status. Crush ko daw sya nung nasa galang pa kami, eh hindi naman! haha. Okay, so much for dreams. haha. Joke Rob!

Goodnight for me. :)

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Thanks to technology!

E-books are so handy!

I have my twilight series now! WooHoo! They were e-books. E-books are copies of books (exact copies) in the computer. Meaning, instead of reading them in hardbound papers, you can read it on your computers. And it's free (if you know how to research:)

I'm happy, atlast i can start reading it. I don't need to buy the 600php book. I'd spent that money on pampering myself nalang. ;) Aright Aright! The e-books were pdf documents.

So yeah, i already have a gift for my ever so loving friend/closefriend/bestfriend ninya. If she doesn't like it on the computer, i'll have it print instead. ;) Rather than buy the book! aha! I was so clever, wasn't I? :D

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Kulot salot




kulot ako nung christmas party. At until the next day, kulot parin. :)))
I love it. Loose curls sila. I never thought i can curl my hair with it's lenght
Hoho! Thanks to youtube, i found a vid. It's the same thing. Much easier!
I spent like 30 mins. Include Blowdrying na!
Galing diba? Aliw! :D Bagay? Hmm? Hmm? ;P

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Hanging habagat!

It's freaking cold.. Huuuuuugggg! Oh well. He's not here, i guess i have to bear with the temperature with my jacket instead. Haha! poor me! I miss him loads!

2 weeks na lang, we'll see each other na. I'm so excited! Haha. I may sound very.. uhmm.. paranoid? idk. can't find the right word! xD Bsta, i wanna see him so badly na. As in.

I'm still bothered with the girly girl theme of my blog. It's so pink! I'm pissed. Haha. My efforts are gonna be sayang naman if i change the theme. I can't seem to configure kasi ung font color no matter how i try. If i change it, nothing happens. Grr!

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New look!

So, what do you think? Yea, i know. It's a bit too girly-girly and it's not me.
But it's cute right? I'm so lazy to revise. The pink font here, on the blog's content won't change.
IDK why. ;) Oh well, i guess we all have to bear with it.

I did this the whole afternoon. Well not really. I did it less than an hour but it took me sometime to find fonts, brushes and base codes. :) Isn't it love? It's green and pink!

K. miss ko na si myko.

New personalized skin

I'm gonna transform my blogger into something more interesting. ;)
I know, it'll be a lot of HARD work. But, that's just how it is. Pag may tyaga, my nilaga. k? lol.
It's like starting all over again with PS CS2. It's been ages since i last used it. I'm still familiar and stuff, but i'm renewing all brushes since i have changed tastes. HAHA! It will take sometime to organize these stuff.. (brushes, patterns, textures, gradients..) Oh well, Give me much determination. ;)

But as of now, i'm missing my man like hell. It's been like 2 days pa lang and yet i have this craving! Oh god. I told you my missing span's really short. (short as in micro mini short) lol. I hope he's behaving. :| I'm not in doubt, i'm just.. Worried?

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Questions

1)If someone were to spell your name wrong, how would they spell it?
- Ninya (with the enye and stuff) & Elaine! Hoho.
2)Is your phone close to you?
- Yea.
3)What's bothering you right now?
- I'm not allowed to join the overnight with friends, NEVER EXPERIENCED it! Fcuk!
4)Bet you're missing someone now?
- Oh yes, I do miss a lot of people.
5)What do you want to be when you're older?
- It's still undecided. I just wanna be happy, filthy rich and popular.
6)If you were given $100, would you spend it, or save it ?
- Save to spend. Lol.
7)What were you doing at midnight last night?
- Snoring. =DD
8)Are you listening to music right now?
- Nope.
9)Do you get along with girls?
- I get along with girls, boys and even homos. =DDD
10)Do you like surprises?
- I love "good" surprises.
11)What are you going to do tomorrow?
- Have this effin xmas partei.
12)Do you like your name?
- It's neat.
13)Do you crack your knuckles?
- Yep. That's why i have the worst hands ever.
14)What were you doing 20 minutes ago?
- I don't know exactly.
15)Did you kiss or hug anyone today?
- Nope.
16)Bonfire or fireplace?
- Don't need one. It's effin hot in here.
17)Do you ever write notes on your hand?
- Yep. I write answers! =DDD
18)Where did you sleep last night?
- My bed in my room in my house. K?
19)When was the last time you were in a swimming pool?
- Percy's birthday. Can't remember when the celebration was held.
20)Have you ever fallen backwards on a chair?
- Yup. Haha.
21)Who's on your mind right now?
- Ashelea, since she's the one who last answered this survey. Lol.
22)Have you ever gone Christmas caroling?
- Never in my life. I would like to try but i'm just too old for that. :|
23)Do you think you're old?
- Old enough?
24)What are you looking forward to in the next month?
- Pagdiriwang/fair.
25)When was the last time you talked to number 1 on your featured friends?
- Yesterday.
26)Have you ever told anyone you were OK when you really weren't?
- I always do. =DD
27)Do you think anyone in general out
there loves you?
- Everybody loves me. Yea, kiddin.
28)Where's the last place you went?
- SM.
29)Do you smile often?
- Smilling is love. =D
30)If you were being chased by an alligator, what would you do?
- Run? Haha!
31)If you caught your boyfriend/girlfriend cheating on you, what would you do?
- I don't know. I'll walk towards him and say "you lost everything!" and slap the whore he's with and release the hounds. HAHAHA.
32)Would you ever change for a boy/girl?
- it depends.
33)Is there anyone that you wish was out of your life?
- Not really.
34)Were you happy when you woke up today?
- I was feeling neutral.
35)Are you always in a good mood?
- I'm moody you know.
36)Is there anything in your past that you'd like to try again?
- None.
37)Do you have a best friend?
- Of course i do.
38)Last Question:
Do You LOve HIM/HER?
- i love everybody. Haha.

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"almost break up"

Yesterday was such a day! (I meant yesterday's yesterday -- so technically, it's the OTHER DAY) so much for elaborating. But yeah, it's not a "day" for a good reason but for a bad one. It was fucked up! But before all the bad stuff, i want you all to know that i have a bruised and bloated right hand. Haha! Kasi Myko and I were playing this KETCHUP game. Haha. Alam mo yon? ;p

Twas late afternoon when things got a little awkward. We fought about this shallow thing and was dug deep prior to this "something" he knew from a friend which was not true. And wtf, he believed it. So he got mad and stuff, acting like i've got this huge fault but really,
i didn't do anything, and to think, this "thing" wasn't even true!
I talked to him and seemed like i was talking to the air. I just can't stop the tears from falling, until i saw myself crying before him. It hurted like hell, well ofcourse his in doubt of what im telling him. He believes the other person more than his girlfriend. He wanted to break up with me. It's the feeling of being.. unloved?.. or.. oh well, can't find the right word. He walked out and i chased him. I pulled his arm and he turned around. I was crying, crying everything out. (to think that we were in school haha)
He just looked at me. Stared deep in my eyes. Tapos he held me, said sorry, and hugged.
I didn't stop crying there. Eh kasi naman naiiyak talaga ako! We went to my place and talked. Umiyak nanaman ako. Wtf. Until I stopped and both sides said everything. So yun, naayos din.

The next day, my eyes were SORE. O_O and...

He was cold. :| It wasn't really about me, it's more like his personal problem that he won't bother to share. I was totally clueless and asking what's wrong all the fucking time. He won't really tell me. So i let him.. It was awkward. Yea, im his gf and i know nothing about it. While his friends know. It's unfair. He told me he won't be attending the xmas party. I got dissapointed. Ofcourse it wouldn't be a party for me without him. :| Uuwe na daw kasi sya ng tarlac the day before the party. For some reason... He wanted me to understand. But how could i? If i know nothing about what's going on? It's 1 day to spare yet he couldn't. I was forcing him to leave after the xmas party instead but he insists. Ofcourse i was sad and all. We talked at my place again and i started crying again for some reason.. (I cry all the time you see.. Haha!) Again he was looking deep into my eyes, seriously. Then he just burst out this smile and had me laughing with my eyes filled. Haha! And weird talaga namin. Haha. I think naconvince co na sya about leaving after the party.



Thank God. Amen. ;)

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I cut myself. ;(

i cut myself. ;( Galos lang naman. Sa ring finger. But it hurts though. How dumb was i. :| I was kinda cleansing the mirror kasi may moist then ung gilid ng mirror, un nagasgas. It's not really something huge and deep, but it's mahapdi. Well so much about my bubu. >:P (rugrats term)

I still don't have anything to wear for christmas party, and still have no bucks. So how's that. I can't wear the new dresses that i bought kasi sleeveless clothes are made bawal na. So suckiy. Very! Im planning to buy na lang on saturday pero san ako kukuha ng pera? Sana natatae ang pera. ;( HAHA!

Okay, puro problema ang blogpost ko ngayon. On the bright side, Congrats to Manny Pekyaw for winning his recent battle with Dela Hoya. Twas great! Though Dela Hoya's waaaaaaaay pogi than him, he's still tougher. Oh well. ;p And Myko and i were both perfect in out recent Chem Quiz 50/50. Bakit ang galing namin diba? ;p

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Improving studies =D

My four-weekly grade in social was 94 and chem 91.2 Hoho! :P Myko's chem grade was high too, 90. So un, we're both improving. Ewan. Trip lang. =))))

Im not with him today, because he'll be out with his friends all day, all night. Boys night out. HAHA. =)) Sana naman, behave sya. I've been telling him to behave since yesterday pa, and i think he's all fed up haha. I trust him naman, and hope na he won't do such silly stuff. They'll go clubbin kasi kaya medyo worried, but K. fine. ;)) haha. I also wanted to go to manila today since it's SMCQC's college fair but he won't permit me, dapat daw kasama ko sya. So un, ang daya. HAHA. pero okay lang, kung san sya masaya. And wala rin akong pera pala. =)))))

8 is nearly approaching, 3 months down. But after that, he'll be heading to tarlac for the whole xmas vacation. So, mga 3 weeks kami hindi magkikita. It's fine pero everytime he''s there kasi he doesn't even bother texting kaya mamimiss ko sya. haha. Sana lang magtext sya once in a while. Saka sana behave. haha. =p

Me? i don't what i'll be busy about this vacation. It's just plain boring. Oh well. Sana may pagkaabalahan naman akong maganda ganda. Yung kaaning aning. =p

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